Four.
It is a hole, and it is not.
A space filled with unfulfilled dreams.
A void of love.
Our daily lives are so busy now, with your little sister. I feel your absence, see it when I see how she enjoys playing with other kids. Older kids, drawn to that big sister with whom she cannot play. When I read about craft ideas that she's not ready for yet, but that would be perfect for you. When I see a butterfly, a bird, a bee. Or feel the sun or the wind. When I breathe.
I see how happy your sister is in her innocence, not knowing what happened to us before she came along. I hope she never knows that pain.
We miss you. Maybe we don't talk about you enough.
We will mark this day. We will have cake. We celebrate the time we had together and the love for you that we have for always.
xoxo Serenity xoxo
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She Almost Made It/ SerenityJoy by Leung Ya Chun (AKS) is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 United States License.
Serenity Joy almost made it into this world alive, but almost doesn't count. Her little sister did make it.
When we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but are grateful for the abundance that's present -- love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature and personal pursuits that bring us pleasure -- the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience Heaven on earth.
-Sarah Ban Breathnach
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- March 2010 - Beanie makes it
- July 2009 - BFP
- December 12, 2008 - We finally take our 'honeymoon' vacation
- September 18, 2008 - D & C
- Septermber 12, 2008 - no heartbeat
- August 27, 2008 - 'indeterminate' u/s
- August 17, 2008 BFP - Double holy freakout!
- June 30, 2008 - Official last day of employment with stupevisor
- February 13, 2008 - Serenity's due date
- February 6, 2008 - Serenity is delivered
- It's a girl!
- June 11, 2007 - BFP - holy freakout!
- April 2007 - 'Hey, let's stop trying to not get pregnant'
- July 2003 - We move to the Midwest
- May 25, 2002 - Our third and final wedding
- December 23, 2001 - Our second wedding
- December 13, 2001 - Our first wedding
- August 1998 - Triple S and Ya Chun meet
She Almost Made It/ SerenityJoy by Leung Ya Chun (AKS) is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-Noncommercial-No Derivative Works 3.0 United States License.
10 comments:
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Remembering Serenity with you, and holding all of you in my heart as you move through this day.
love to you. xo
It is a hole, and it is not. I think this is a perfect summary, such a strange place to inhabit.
Thinking of you and your beautiful daughter, Serenity Joy, today. When she might have turned four.
Love to you. I love the way you write about four. Thinking of you and your Serenity.
Remembering Serenity with you always~
(((hugs)))
You are in my heart. I wish things you were doing crafts with your big girl.
So good to hear from you again. Remembering Serenity along with you, & hoping you have (had?) a wonderful celebration.
hugs
Remembering Serenity with you, sorry I missed the day.
I have no idea how I missed this post, as I still read blogs daily. I can only apologise and assure you, Serenity is missed.
xo
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