Christmas was... uneventful, calm, plucky. Happy but not deliriously so. We have my sister here to distract us. Bea is so full of life, her light pushes the darkness to the far corners.
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Neither set of grandparents sent her any presents.
I really don't know what universe they live in. I am not complaining. I am not even wasting the mental energy to be confused.
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It's midnight. I have read the blogs. It's quiet, except for the dog's and the husband's snores. I can hear them both here in the living room.
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I am beginning to wonder about trying for another one. I am not really sure that I want to. After Bea first came home, I was like "this is great! I hope I get pregnant again asap!" Now I am more like "Life is good. Do I really want to try to change that?"
It's like when Bea is happily playing on the floor, or with one certain toy, and I try to make her *more* happy by picking her up, or giving her more toys, and she starts crying. Someone told me this "Never try to make a happy baby happier" and it is so true. Just leave 'well enough' alone.
That's where I am kinda at about this whole sibling thing.
Although it is nice having a sister. A living sister.
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I'm not sure about another one, either. For now it's nice to let this one soak up all the attention and love.
So glad you had a nice holiday. Sometimes calm is good.
It's nice to have siblings to play with... and you only need to be 80% sure.
Happy Holidays!
I hear you, on all of this. Except the present thing. What's up with that? Like you, I wont try and go there. But Angus got so ridiculously spoilt by both sets of grandparents, that I could send some to Bea to free up space in my house and give her something new and shiny to play with.
Thinking of you and your babies.
xo
I just can't comprehend not giving a gift to a grandchild. Or at least wanting to spend time with her.
Holidays are stressful and emotional, dead baby mama or not. I'm glad to be back home.
I'm glad you had a good christmas. Very odd about the grandparents though.. I'm sure you will come to a decision that's right for you about having another one.
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