A new feeling

I woke up this morning and my first thought was of Serenity, like it has been. This time I felt so much love, and only love. My heart was swollen with it and yet I didn't feel any sadness. I felt the kind of love that makes you want to give your loved one a little extra squeeze during the hug. I felt like I wanted to hold my baby tight. Of course, I felt a little sad at that, but I was overwhelmed by the joy.

I know that Serenity has touched so many people. I felt that at the memorial service. We asked the guests to write letters to Serenity and to put them in a memorial box for her. I didn't think many people would be into it, but everyone really rushed to get a notecard and pen. We actually ran out! I think everyone really wanted to say something; express themselves.

I don't know if I will ever read these notes or not. At least one person told me that the note was really written to me. Maybe one day I will look at a few. Maybe I will read them to Serenity. Maybe I will read them to her younger sibling(s) when they are older. I just don't know.

But I know they are there and they are written for the love that everyone felt that day. I hope they carry this love in their hearts forever and spread it to the world. I hope they hug their kids more, find more patience with them, practice kindness.

The memory box we got was quite nice. I found it at a Hall*mark store, under $20 (if you can believe that from Hall*mark).



Mommy loves you Serenity and sends you butterfly kisses... {o} {o}