I have learned that deadbabymamas have uncut hair and unclean teeth (the comments are great). No wonder no one wants to be around us! Here, I thought it was the awkward conversations and raw emotions.
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We watched the movie 'Atonement' last night. Our neighbors know that we have been trying to watch 'happy' movies lately, so when they saw me this morning and I told them, they were like "that movie is brutal". (Spoiler alert) Well, I actually didn't think it was THAT sad. At least both of them got to die. No one had to be the one left to live. (well, except the sister).
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It's pretty bad when your perspective is that a movie about betrayal, war, death, and guilt is not really heart wrenching.
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Lately Triple S and I have really only wanted to be with each other. In some ways, I feel like we have fallen in love again, and are experiencing that 'honeymoon' period; where nothing is as important as the other and other people are only intrusions on your emotions. I guess we have fallen further.
Of course, this is not a romantic time, but it is deeply emotional. I have come to appreciate Triple S in new ways. We have each been patient with the other, like nothing I would have ever imagined.
We made brunch and baked an apple pie this morning, and I was just happy to be with him. Together, doing mundane tasks, peeling apples to peel apples.
We need some 'together time' to clean the house. Too bad he is at futbol, I don't think I can clean the house by myself ;)
(Te lele, babe)
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My hubby and I went through this stage. I think because nobody else really understands what you are going through but each other. lean on each other and you'll make it through.
Uncut hair & unclean teeth?? Who told you that??
Haven't seen or read "Atonement," but it's funny how different people have different perspectives on the same thing.
Wow i am so sorry you are having to walk down this path. Your journey is a difficult one and you will be in my thoughts and prayers!
Isn't it amazing how much we all have in common.
I remember our bearevement nurse told us that many couples split up afterward and me and my husband were like what. We didn't get it. We felt the same way, it brought us together. He was my rock and I was his, we are experiencing the same loss, we mourn our little angle together.
I'm glad you and Triple S are closer than ever.
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