Aches

Still, almost 15 months out, some days are ok and some days aren't.

I am having some not so great days.

I have had a headache for the better part of the last few days. Comes from the base of the back of my head, wraps right up the side to my temples. Nice. Last night and today it hurts so much that my stomach is nauseous. Super nice.

Then I think, am I pregnant? Even though I just had a period? Because I had a headache for the entire first trimester. But no, don't think so.

Then, am I developing seasonal allergies? Triple S' have come into full force, but that involves a lot of snot and sinus pressure. I don't think I have sinuses at the base of my head (but who knows, other anatomical things are awry in my body).

I think it's from PT. Since I was all losey from my massage, I think the PT did some super special 'treatments' and the upper vertebrate in my neck are unhappy about it. Apparently they like the position that they have been in for the last 15 or so years and are stubbornly refusing to be content in a new position. Boo hiss to them.

I am also anxious, because as Janis recently wrote, I am about to enter one of the frontiers of avoidance. This Saturday is the Chinese Festival at the Botanical Garden where I work. They expect at least 6000 people on Saturday, the day that I work. Triple S and I have been to the Chinese Festival before, since you know Triple S is Chinese. This is an event we would have surely taken Serenity to this year, but wouldn't otherwise be attending now. But, alas, I have to work.

All the folks that have adopted Chinese babies bring their kids to the event so that their kids can get some of the 'native culture'. Now, I am mostly ok with blond-haired and blue-eyed little babies*. But those Asian kids break my heart. Serenity looked more like Triple S than me, from the tone of her skin, to her dark hair and the shape of her eyes. She also had his lips**.

So, tomorrow I expect to be sitting at the gardening help desk, answering the number one question for such a large event (Do you have a bathroom in this building?) and seeing all the kids in their cute little chi paos looking all alive and happy.

*Ha-who am I kidding, I had to try really hard not to cry Thursday when a volunteers' one-year-old grandaughter came in Thursday and everyone was fussing over her.
**Just for the record, she had my pinky toe.