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If things had worked out differently, Triple S and I could now be parenting two girls under the age of two - both in diapers.

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I am my mother's friend's shadow baby. Her son died during delivery at around the same time I was born. My sister and her second child, a daughter, are the same age. Their third is a few years younger than them. I vaguely remember him as a baby, nursing, in a swing. I never knew about her first son until maybe I was in high school or even college.

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On Friday, as I was driving to one of my garden plots, I had that familiar, concurrent hollowness to the point of feeling crushed and fullness to the point of bursting in my chest. The grip of grief.

Last night, while I was "sleeping", I was angry again. Angry at my womb, our umbilical cord, at whatever twist or movement on whoever's part that got that cord too tight or kinked.

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We went to see the Terminator movie last night. The theater was so empty! Wow, this economy must be really bad.

The movie was good, better than I had expected. I was hoping they wouldn't ruin the series. I liked the first two movies. While we were driving home, I told Triple S I want one of those kick-ass sawed-off grenade launchers. This morning I am thinking we should get solar panels, just in case the terminators attack...

Good thing I can garden.

Last night I dreamed that the world was, ya know, apocalyptic, and Triple S and I were hiding, with a wee baby. Hand washing diapers - not fun. But, we had a baby!

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I am sure I have mentioned this before, but Triple S loves mysteries. Sherlock Holmes, Agatha Christie. At one point, we watched this show from BBC about these gardening ladies that solved crimes, Rosemary and Thyme or something. Now, he has discovered that all the Murder, She Wrote episodes are airing on cable, and he's been recording and watching them. He made me promise I wouldn't tell anyone what channel he is recording these from!

I remember watching this series as a kid and thinking, 'if Angela Lansbury ever shows up in my town, I am leaving, because surely someone is to be murdered shortly!'

Guess who is excited about the upcoming Sherlock Holmes movie? The preview looked awesome; too bad Triple S was in the bathroom.

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Triple S thinks I should write a TV series, possibly for air on unmentionable station, about the gardening help desk where I work. It'd be a comedy about the crazy volunteers I work with, the really odd questions we get at the desk, the weird things that happen there, and some usefull gardening tips. I still don't think it would top the melodrama that is the research bench.

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I am bummed that they canceled Life. We like all these quirky shows that never last long enough. At least Chuck is saved, for now.

Does anyone know if they are re-airing the first season of Castle, maybe on a cable channel? We loved the series Firefly and loved the actor who played Mal (and the Baldwin who is on Chuck). Since we DVR and don't watch commercials, we found out about it late in the season.

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