Getting out of the dead baby rut

Nope. I am not out of it. Today is one of those days that I just 'woke up on the wrong side of the bed' and am feeling blue all day.

I have a lot of little things on my mind. This pregnancy is wearing me out. I am anxious. We have an OB appointment on Friday, and an ultrasound. Hopefully there's someone home.

My retest for TSH (hypothyroid) came back within the normal range. I don't know if I should test again, to see if I am fluctuating. We will discuss with the OB.

Like Sara over at "Streaks on the China" said, these politics are wearing me out. This Palin lady is scary. She traveled late in pregnancy and supposedly had some early signs of labor. I just wonder if she didn't care that much if her son was at risk.

Since I was having a blah day, I watched some "day time television" while eating my lunch. I ended up watching one of those spouse swapping shows. The one mom was real nice and her family and kids were her priority. The other lady was kinda selfish, she left her daughters' father for a younger, immature man. I thought she was really immature. People like that bug me.

Highlight of the day- I went for a bike ride around the nearby park. Early fall weather rocks. I won't be able to bike much longer as this pregnancy goes on, although I am thinking of getting a stand so that I can bike in the basement.

After this ultrasound on Friday, I hope to tell a few friends that we are incubating. That way we'll be able to do things with them again. There's two couples that we do something with about monthly. This started after Serenity died (a few months after). We don't talk about Serenity (we did quite a bit with the one couple right after), but they are not immature and don't say dumb stuff around us. There's really been very few people we've been able to tolerate these last months, so it will be nice to be able to go out with them. They're fun and pleasant and loooow drama.

We have a wedding reception to go to this Friday. Yesterday I went shopping to buy the couple a small present. I don't think they registered and their in their 40's, so they have all those household type things. I went to an antique store, because sometimes I can find something nice for that couple that already has everything. Nothing really caught my eye, and I haven't been to their new house yet to know what would work. I went to a Hallmark store to see if I could find something about 'love'. Well, the Hallmark store just made me really sad. I told Triple S later that night, and he said it's because "Hallmark stores are full of all that sentimental crap!" Oh, yeah, that's what was getting to me. He always knows jut what is beyond the tip of my tongue! Anyway, I bought a plaque that says:

Love believes all,
hopes all,
endures all...
Love never ends.

This is something on which I believe I can speak with authority. I hope they appreciate it and the deeper idea behind it. I am deeply grateful to have Triple S, my best friend and my strength.

Well, hopefully we will be in the mood to go the reception. It will really depend ont he U/S results. I think I might have to wear the dress I wore to a wedding last October, with my big Serenity bump. I have now what can only be referred to as pudge. I really can't blame it on macadamia...yet.

I commented today on a post that I can't believe it is only four weeks since I found out I was pregnant. I am weary...and confused. It's only been three weeks.