I spoke with my parents last night. They didn't know we were pregnant. My mom said someone had asked her if we were going to have another kid, and I told her I was pregnant and miscarried. She asked when this happened, and I said, "like, now." Then she had to get all dramatic and say "I have to get off the phone cause I don't want to make you any sadder, here, you tell your father." So, just to make it easy on me, instead of she telling him later, he gets on the phone and we're talking about nothing and he's like "what did you have to tell me..." thanks mom. Way to take way for the team. I don't really fucking care if it's not easy for you to know these things, or for you to tell your husband. Thanks for making me do it.
Triple S then was speaking to his parents, and they were going on about something he didn't really care about, oh and we forgot his mom's birthday, so he just told her what we have been dealing with.
Earlier in the day, I finally had a bit of time with my neighbor, so we told her and her husband. She knew something was going on over here so was really concerned. That's my excuse for the pitiful shape that the yard is in.... It's nice to have their support, though, and I really appreciate it. I saw her today and we spoke a bit more as her son was still at the sitters. It is nice to have someone that you know you can lean on if you really need to.
It felt good to at least let some people know. Otherwise, there is a huge disconnect with where we are and where everyone else thinks we are. Yeah, we're still in the pits, or not out of the woods or whatever goofy euphemism you want to use. I prefer: we are still stuck in deadbabyland. Where we will always remain, although the perception of it may change, and our ability to navigate about may improve.
And I just want to say: I really love my hubby. He's swell.
He's driving this dizzy girl to her class tonite and taking me to the dr. tomorrow. Poor guy was exhausted yesterday from his 5 days of being house-hubby and wife-taker-care-of.
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So sorry you couldn't be telling them about a pregnancy instead of a miscarriage, but I'm glad you were able to tell a few people at least.
I'm sorry about your mom, it's hard when others make your pain about them. Hugs.
I am glad you have your neighbor. She sounds like a sweet person. Sorry your Mom didn't handle it better.
Big, big hugs to you, Ya Chun. I've been thinking of you A LOT.
Oh Ya Chun, I haven't checked here for a while and have just read about your miscarriage. I'm so sorry, so unfair and so hard. *tears*
Triple S does sound pretty swell. I'd say you're lucky, but you know...well...it's all relative, isn't it.
Thinking of you, Ya Chun. XO.
Ya Chun, thank you for your comments. I'm sorry that I missed this. I have not been checking all my blogs lately.
I'm so sorry for your pain and for your loss.
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