No, not really, Didn't before Serenity died and don't now.
2 | Describe, in a word or two, the nature of your spiritual self before and then after the loss of your baby/babies.
Before and after, an agnostic or humanist. I don't think there is a 'higher power', certainly not one that trifles with the daily lives of individuals.
I am not sure what happens to our 'souls'. I tend to think they get recycled.
3 | Do you pray, even if you wouldn’t call it praying? To whom? What for?
Nope. I sometimes just hope for peace and love in this world, for everyone.
4 | Is there a particular line of scripture/teaching/sentiment that you find particularly helpful? Or is there one that’s commonly referred to but is unhelpful?
The songs I chose for Serenity's memorial service really spoke to me, and still do.
Unhelpful comments are such as things as "god needed his angel back" and any of those religious platitudes.
5 | Did your faith offer rites, rituals or teachings that acknowledged your baby and your healing? If not (or if you didn't seek it out in an organized fashion), what rites, rituals or mantras have you adopted as your own?
I only think that I love my daughter and that she should be a force of good in my life, and that nothing bad should come from her death. This is why Triple S and I have been careful to handle our emotions and to support each other in our grief, being patient and caring towards one another.
6 | Some people say that in a foxhole (a desperate, life-threatening situation), there are no atheists. You’ve been in a foxhole. Discuss.
I actually considered being an atheist, but I am a scientist so can't say either way. I know enough people believe in 'god', so there is a force of common thought out there. After receiving the news that our baby had no heartbeat, I didn't turn to any invisible being. Perhaps my grasp on reality worked for me, because I knew I needed to get through the delivery. I relied on my husband and myself.
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